It’s
comprehensible, I have lost rights to use these words,
Yet,
as I type, solitary part of my heart hurts.
I know,
these words may sound made up, temporary or fake,
Still I
vow that with agony, I shake.
I still
remember our initial meet,
A moment
to cherish, comforting enough to breathe.
It was
those few moments it hit my mind,
I
wanted you as a needy demanded a dime.
Your
existence grew on me,
Just
like a leaf sprung on to a tree.
Gradually
you became the warmth of my blanket,
My thoughts,
my dream and my habit.
With the
time, I grew so fond,
The happy
soul had spawned a bond.
A relationship
with no boundaries, limits or ends,
I was
proud to entitle you my best friend.
When the
night arrived and duty called,
We cried,
we laughed, we shared it all along.
The
long conversation, the nonsense chats,
Who
knew this was the result of a basic chitchat?
This is
when the “like” turned into “love”,
Giving
you the position with nothing above.
Mentioning
you in every conversation,
I was
proud to declare it a happy relation.
But as
they say a coin has 2 sides,
Circumstances
twisted and one of them had to abide.
Accepting
it without any hardships,
One
end of the rope started to slip.
Able enough
to keep it strong,
You accepted
my corrects even though they were wrong.
Blinded
enough not to see,
You
were there all along, I just stung you like a bee.
Still
keeping your cool through the heat,
My
actions were a sinful deed.
Yet putting
your emotions aside,
You aided
me by still shinning bright.
Losing
my respect, anger and temper,
My complains
penetrated your skin just like a dagger.
Ignoring
the result. I raged,
Not long,
before I trapped myself in the cage.
Now
our foundations are split,
Not a
moment passes by without the guilt.
The difference
is
Now you
are gone, I wont be born.
Considering
myself the victim of my action,
Today
as I write this, I am reduced to a fraction.
As I reach
out to the end of this blog, there are moments in your life, when, just one
mistake will all it take, to lose someone. Someone you love, adore. Maybe they were
your family, friends, an inanimate object.. Yet the importance of it is only
realized after it is snatched from you.
I know these
words don’t mean enough to be accepted as an apology. I realize my mistakes are
unforgivable. I would like to send my sincere apologies to 2 of my closest
friends, who in the past week have been through my stupidity and also to all my
brothers, colleagues and my friends “I
Am Sorry”
If you want
to address this message to any of your lost mates, then share it let them feel
the value of friendship before its too late.
